Nov 11, 2009

Going the Distance

I think elliptical machinery should be an Olympic sport. They could switch it out with archery in the decathlon,(it's more of a skill anyways),to ease it into the mainstream first and eventually it will explode onto the scene like snowboarding. I can see it now, moms across the world competing against those half their age only to stand on the podium with a gold medal hanging around their neck at the end.

Okay, so it may never reach that awe inspiring status, but it does have it's benefits. The main perk being that you can get a great cardio workout in the privacy of your own home. This means you never have to worry about the weather, looking like a red faced, sweaty mess in a gym, or have to suppress the urge to breathlessly belt out Sweet Child of Mine when it comes up on your Ipod shuffle. If you do this though just be prepared to be mercilessly ridiculed by anyone within earshot. You may think that you're killing two birds with one stone by cultivating your Karaoke talent while simultaneously strengthening your heart but they'll think you're shrieking in pain and in need of 911 assistance.

Nov 10, 2009

Score One For Mom



I reached the 100 pound mark today! Yay! Yay, YAAAAAAHHHHHHH!! :) It's been a long time coming and I actually got there. It sounds horribly corny but, to me it feels like a dream; one that still doesn't feel quite real and that could slip away when I wake up. For some reason, (I still don't fully understand), I buried who I was for years, and now it feels like I can be the person that I had wanted to be. I was always okay. I just couldn't see it or give myself enough credit. Dammit, now I'm getting all emotional like Oprah during the Whitney Houston interview or every other episode of her show for that matter... It's just good to be getting there, even if I am a little late.

Nov 7, 2009

A Second Look

I've been really bad about keeping up with this blog and after analyzing it, (as I do with just about everything), I guess it's because it's always been a sensitive issue. I'm really good at avoiding those things but maybe I just need give myself some time to adjust.

Like yesterday for example. I had sometime in between labs and was going for some coffee when I noticed my reflection in the glass door. I've gotten used to not looking as it always mad me feel bad, and for the first time in a long time that I didn't hate what I saw. It sounds normal for most, but it's such a relief to me to not have to worry so much about what I look like. People are even saying "Hi" to me more often when walking by and I'm still trying to get used to it.

There are those that would say that the body is just a container for the real you and that you are not your body, yet I can't say that it doesn't matter to some extent. Why are you treated differently based on appearance and why does that change how you feel about yourself? Maybe it's just all in my head.